Exploring my sub side further

Recently Jay has been asking me what I want out of hypnosis, and to this I answered, “I don’t know” because genuinely, I don’t. Jay was the one who first got into hypnosis, and being the good sub I am, I have just gone a long with him, enjoying all these new weird and wonderful experiences. I had never really thought about where I wanted this to end up on a deeper level. Improving my amnesia skills and one day having the ability to see magical creatures both appeal though.

So I decided to ask him where he would like to go with hyno and got the simple answer “complete control” my reaction to this was very much spilt, half of me (probably Trixie’s influence) got very excited and turned on straight away but the other half was very scared!

It is not that I do not trust Jay, far from it, but part of me just panicked. I’m a very creative person, with at times strong opinions and being ‘different’ is such a big part of me so I think the side of me that was scared was worried that I would lose this free spirited part of myself if I give myself to him fully.

That night Jay tried getting me to give myself over to him by confessing it out loud that he owned me, all of me, and at the time high on my need for an orgasm and a little of Trixie popping in it was all fine, in fact it was very good and a real turn on. But the next day something changed and I freaked out about it due to the above reasons and other pressures in my life.

Over the next few days we spoke more and more about it all not really coming up with a solution. Then we decided to use a script written by Lex to work on giving Jay a trigger to completely control me. This wasn’t like Trixie were she is a slave but has her own mind, it’s more mindless and controlled. We played with this throughout the week getting great results and I was really enjoying it.

So this last weekend, Jay and I were heading to a hypno meet in Bristol, meeting up with some like-minded hypnotists and hypnotees. We went to show off our new skills and pick up some help and advice.

The weekend went down a treat, we learnt a lot of good tips on how to improve certain aspects and Jay and Lex had fun playing with mine and Liz’s triggers in the hotel bar, causing a lot of frustration for both us, and I’m sure for the onlookers. But the best part came when we went to bed, as it usually does ;). As Jay and Lex had kept playing with my hornyness, I was very horny by the time we were heading to bed, sadly Jay said he was not so I asked him to play with our orgasm scale before I exploded, but he did a lot more then that :-).

Jay decided he wanted to try and completely control me again after the success we had had with the script. We sat and talked about it and worked out my issues, and he promised to work with me so that this time I did not freak out, and so he began. He started with getting me to move my mind into his hands, much like we do with pain, pushing out those thoughts and feelings but this time I was also giving my fears and all my thoughts away making me blank. I think because when we move the pain out into his hands we give the pain a colour I gave my thoughts a colour, or more a glow!!! So as my thoughts moved into Jay he started to light up with a glow (and yes I know this sounds a little crazy) and when they came back we were connected through this glow, becoming truly one (again I know it sounds a little crazy but really this is how it felt). I was so intoxicated by this glow and felt so connected to Jay that it was easy to give over control and not stop myself giving everything to Jay. This felt so good and so intense even recalling it now has got me excited and almost out of breath, this ended in me having a great orgasm which seemed to last continuously for about 5 minutes, which as you can imagine was simply AMAZING!

The next morning I didn’t feel any different to the night before like the first time we tried this. I still felt relaxed and at ease with all that happened and like I said before even recalling it has made me horny so hopefully this good feeling will last and we can really use it enhance everything else.

Elle

New feature

I've decided to add 'Reactions' to the blog posts.

There are now three options 'Interesting', '*Hottt*' and 'Other'. So if you find a post thought provoking, or well... interesting, then tick the Interesting box. If the post did something for you, made you a little 'hot under the collar' etc, then tick *Hottt*. Finally, if it was neither of those then tick Other and feel free to post your comments as to what the Other thing you thought of the post was!

Jay

The strange case of Trixie...

Once again I'm going to post about something that happened a few months ago. I really should keep up with the blog posts from now on...

On the evening in question, we had been to a family party. As often happens on these kind of occasions, copious amounts of alcohol were consumed by all concerned. While Elle wasn't incredibly drunk this night, she was well past the stage of being tipsy and there may have been a slight sway to her stance by the end of the evening :P.

The party wound down about 1am and off we went to bed and as is often the case after a drink or ten, Elle was feeling rather frisky. Cue the jumping onto Jay and a prod or two demanding sex. Out of nowhere the oh so recognisable 'butter wouldn't melt' voice of Trixie popped out. Trixie speaks in a slightly softer voice with a very teasing and naughty tint to it you see. While I was rather puzzled to see Trixie pop out all of her own accord, the strangest thing was that she seemed rather sober. The drunken slurring had gone, her eyes able to fully focus and the sway had disappeared.

I'm sure this is very hard to believe. It was indeed difficult for me to get my head round at the time but somehow, Elle had managed to go from being rather drunk to perfectly sober in the space of a few seconds. Once the deed was done, Trixie went back to the recesses of Elle's mind and I once again had a rather drunk girlfriend on my hands. It was an instant change and mind boggling to watch.

I have no explanation for what went on at all but I thought I'd share and see if anyone can come up with any possibilities!

Jay

Trixie, Cindy and Frankie

A (long) while ago I promised to write a post about a few 'characters' that we had been utilising. While Cindy and Frankie haven't been brought out in a while there have been a few interesting developments with Trixie so I thought it would still be worth a post. That and I'm working on a much longer post, though it may never actually make its way on here...

Those who have made their way through our other posts will have seen Elle's post in August where she briefly discussed these characters of hers. As she said at the time, the use of these characters stemmed from my attempts to talk directly to Elle's subconscious (à la the BDSM Hypnosis Blog). When this didn't quite work we had a talk about how it felt and what had gone on. Elle said that while she didn't feel like the trancing had had much effect on bringing her subconscious out, there had always been something there that had taken over slightly in the past. For her, this was her submissive side. In her every day life, Elle is fairly dominant, very strong willed and likes to be in control. There is, however, this other side to her. Now, I'm in no means talking about a split personality or anything close to this. Simply that she has a truly submissive side. Something she often battles with, but rarely succeeds in taming when it comes to me.

We had a chat about it (the exact words I can no longer remember) and Elle identified that this could be part of her subconscious. This conclusion was more logical at the time but like I say, I have no recollection of the actual conversation. I decided that if her subconscious refused to come out and play simply by being asked, I get a little more persuasive and see if I could coax it out. I figured that by suppressing some of Elle's characteristics that didn't relate to her vision of her subconscious it might allow it to come through a bit clearer. In the beginning it didn't really. I negated the downsides of this failure by enjoying the new trigger to turn Elle into this wonderfully submissive girl :D. After a while, I decided this character needed a name so I put Elle into trance and asked her to name it. After a little while the answer came back 'My name is Trixie, Master.'

Over the last few months, Trixie has grown more and more. She has more of her own personality (though still VERY much Elle). She kisses differently. Touches differently. In fact she does a lot of things differently ;-). She also has far fewer boundaries and hang-ups, something that no doubt relates to the removal of Elle's worries when she switches to Trixie. Trixie also has a little habit of taking control of Elle. I'm fairly certain this is instigated by Elle herself but she says differently. Hmmm. In this post I wish to stick to the topic of the characters so I will save a puzzling little story about Trixie for another post.

Then there are Cindy and Frankie. These two are far less complex. They are basically just Elle acting out roles. Cindy is a porn star. A shit kisser (always looking for those angles to the camera lol) but great at urmmm, other things... Frankie was originally a stripper that we had the pleasure of dancing for us at a strip club we went to. When we got home I decided it'd be a good idea to create Elle a stripper character, and for posterity of such a wonderful dance, I named this character Frankie. Frankie doesn't really kiss, won't usually do naughty things but is an outstanding dancer! Basically what you would expect of a stripper.

The interesting bit about these other two characters that while they are just Elle acting a part, she becomes them. Thinks like a stipper/porn star, acts like them and finally does their roles rather(/worryingly lol) well too.

I'll get that interesting post about Trixie up soon too. Hope everyone is still enjoying the read. Feel free to put a link to the blog on sites that may have a readership who would enjoy it.

Jay

Blanking and Freezing

Back in June I posted about how we were having success with a blank trigger, reading it back now I think I was being slightly optimistic! Elle (after a great deal of pressure from a couple of regular readers I will no longer be using single letters for our names!) was feeling very trapped when her blank trigger was used and in hindsight, not going very 'blank' at all. While we had also tried out a freeze trigger, that was something that Elle found annoyingly easy to break free of. That obviously wouldn't do, would it now?!

As these things so often start out for us, Elle bet me that an induction using a swinging watch wouldn't work. (why does she persist with the idea that I can't turn ANYTHING I want into an induction :-D ). Well we didn't have a swinging watch to hand so a long necklace had to do. As soon as Elle's eyes were fixed on the necklace and I had started my patter, I could see her beginning to drift into trance. Rather than allow her to close her eyes and drift into a normal trance, I instructed that her eyes would stay wide open, completely fixated on the necklace. I could see her eyes narrowing in, pure concentration on the slow swing.

Once she was sufficiently deep, I began to get her muscles to freeze. One by one. Feeling all control of her muscles slowly drifting away. Completely frozen, just like a mannequin. Like she was made of plastic. I then got her eyes to stop following the necklace, but to fix on a distant point. A point that she wouldn't be able to actually focus on, just somewhere to maintain her eye fixation on. The fun bit came when she was completely frozen, I slowly encouraged her mind to just melt away. Her mind unable to hold on to any thought. Just like water slipping through her hands. The harder she tried to hold onto a thought, the quicker it would disappear from her mind. Until all thoughts were gone, her mind completely blank. It was bloody fun watching her face go completely blank, her facial muscles relaxed that extra bit more than usual, her eyes became completely defocused. A rather enjoyable sight!

During our 'hypno debrief' (as is customary for us these days when we have a success with something new) it turned out that Elle wasn't really aware of anything around her at the time of being blank as her mind was unable to hold onto the thought. However, upon waking, much of it came back as her mind was once again allowed to process the information.

There are a number of posts in the pipeline that I hope to have out soon!

Jay erotic hypnosis, hypnosis, blank hypnosis, mindless hypnosis, hypnosis mannequin

Success with Amnesia...Kind of...

After L's post (sorry for the long delay in between posting...) 'Alexander' suggested a method for amnesia that we hadn't tried before. It consisted of putting the memory into a bubble. A bubble which, when touched, would allow full access to the memory and then when the hands are taken away, the memory would be inaccessible.

We did a gentle, relaxing induction followed by a good deal of deepening. A good time to mention a new deepening technique that I picked up a few weeks ago. Once in trance, simply suggest that the subject will go 'As deep as they know they can, all the way down, deeper than ever before'. And repeat this a couple of times, you should really see your subject going deeper and deeper.

So, once L was nice and deep I told her that everything I was about to say would be placed into a bubble. I told her that when I touched my nose, she would find herself INCREDIBLY turned on. To the point that she would instantly jump on me, uncontrollably and without a second thought. I knew the suggestion would work, it was whether she'd know why she was doing it that was the interesting part ;).

I brought L out of trance and carried on talking as if nothing had happened. I could tell that L knew she had been tranced but I wasn't going to ask whether she remembered what I had told her to forget, we've worked out this probably isn't the best way of going about things! After a couple of minutes I touched my nose. Bam. L was on my like a shot, telling me how horny she felt and how much she wanted me. Woop. After a little while ;-), I released her and asked her how that felt. She said it was very strange, that the feelings had come out of nowhere. I was doing mental leaps of joy right about now!

I then proceeded to tell L what I had done and asked her if she could remember it now. She couldn't. The mental leaps of joy were increasing in height! I then tranced her again and told her to put her hands onto the bubble again and allow the memory to come flooding back. Woke her up and asked her if she remembered. Still nothing. The memory had COMPLETELY gone. At this point neither of us were sure if this was a good or bad thing!

The interesting part of this post kind of ends here as no matter how hard we try, with the same wording and everything, we can not get L to forget anything again. We're back to simply 'blurry' memories again. Nothing will disappear!

Grrr. Advice is more than welcome!

More posts coming very soon (that's a promise this time).

J

My first post

I thought it was finally time to write a post of my own! I’m even newer than J at this whole blog-posting thing so please bare with me. For now I’m just going to do a brief overview, so lets start at the beginning. Regular readers will have read about most of this before, for that I apologise.

When J first told me about his thoughts on trying hypnosis I was eager to try it out though never thought it would work, and wasn’t sure what we could really do with it. Little did I know.

Our first time we went through a long induction and J tried to get me use to the idea of my subconscious taking over, he managed to get my arm to lock, so it couldn’t move. It felt so strange because no matter how much I tried I could not get my arm to move, I was completely in his control. I think this really made me believe that J could hypnotise me and I was then ready to try much harder things. As the night went on he managed to get me to do all sorts of things, I remember laughing at a few of the suggestion thinking there is no way this will work, then the next thing I know I’m doing it, without a second thought. I think this is where I started to understand about the subconscious, it really did feel like I had no control and that my body was just taking over.

Even though this was such a success, there was one problem we had and that was getting my hand to stick to things.

We decided to go to a hypno meet in town to speak to other people who can and have been hypnotized to help us fine tune what we were doing. For me the main thing I wanted to know and that was how it works for them. There was one guy there, Parkey, who had been hypnotized and I found it really interesting and reassuring speaking to him. He told me that it took him a long time to do the harder things like forget, this made me feel better as I was worried I was just faking it as the harder bits weren’t working. He also helped me get ‘stuck’ to things, he told me to stop think it wasn’t stuck and just let it happen. And what do you know, it did happen.

Since then we have really started to progress, linking commands and trying to forget for longer. One way we are trying to do this is by J trying to talk to the subconscious, his thought is by speaking directly to her she can help him to make me forget. This is proving hard as my subconscious doesn’t like to speak too much, but we have created different ‘characters’. These are sometimes people J makes up, for example Frankie, who is a stripper but then there are ones that come more from me like Tirixie, who is, lets say, my naughty side. For me these characters seem almost normal, they take over; speak differently and, I’m told, kiss differently but for some reason this doesn’t freak me out like you might think. In fact, it’s the opposite - I quite enjoy it. The one thing I did find strange is one night J told Trixie to make me forget what we had just done, he told her to put the memories in a boat and push them over a cliff. When this happened I was the one in control but I heard Trixie laugh in my head! This was the first time I really thought of us as different people, and I think now from here she can start to become more apart from me hopefully making forgetting and more fun easier.

Hope you enjoyed my first post, I’ll try and get some more detailed posts up soon.

L

[J] - More to come about Trixie, Fankie and co. from me soon.