Exploring my sub side further

Recently Jay has been asking me what I want out of hypnosis, and to this I answered, “I don’t know” because genuinely, I don’t. Jay was the one who first got into hypnosis, and being the good sub I am, I have just gone a long with him, enjoying all these new weird and wonderful experiences. I had never really thought about where I wanted this to end up on a deeper level. Improving my amnesia skills and one day having the ability to see magical creatures both appeal though.

So I decided to ask him where he would like to go with hyno and got the simple answer “complete control” my reaction to this was very much spilt, half of me (probably Trixie’s influence) got very excited and turned on straight away but the other half was very scared!

It is not that I do not trust Jay, far from it, but part of me just panicked. I’m a very creative person, with at times strong opinions and being ‘different’ is such a big part of me so I think the side of me that was scared was worried that I would lose this free spirited part of myself if I give myself to him fully.

That night Jay tried getting me to give myself over to him by confessing it out loud that he owned me, all of me, and at the time high on my need for an orgasm and a little of Trixie popping in it was all fine, in fact it was very good and a real turn on. But the next day something changed and I freaked out about it due to the above reasons and other pressures in my life.

Over the next few days we spoke more and more about it all not really coming up with a solution. Then we decided to use a script written by Lex to work on giving Jay a trigger to completely control me. This wasn’t like Trixie were she is a slave but has her own mind, it’s more mindless and controlled. We played with this throughout the week getting great results and I was really enjoying it.

So this last weekend, Jay and I were heading to a hypno meet in Bristol, meeting up with some like-minded hypnotists and hypnotees. We went to show off our new skills and pick up some help and advice.

The weekend went down a treat, we learnt a lot of good tips on how to improve certain aspects and Jay and Lex had fun playing with mine and Liz’s triggers in the hotel bar, causing a lot of frustration for both us, and I’m sure for the onlookers. But the best part came when we went to bed, as it usually does ;). As Jay and Lex had kept playing with my hornyness, I was very horny by the time we were heading to bed, sadly Jay said he was not so I asked him to play with our orgasm scale before I exploded, but he did a lot more then that :-).

Jay decided he wanted to try and completely control me again after the success we had had with the script. We sat and talked about it and worked out my issues, and he promised to work with me so that this time I did not freak out, and so he began. He started with getting me to move my mind into his hands, much like we do with pain, pushing out those thoughts and feelings but this time I was also giving my fears and all my thoughts away making me blank. I think because when we move the pain out into his hands we give the pain a colour I gave my thoughts a colour, or more a glow!!! So as my thoughts moved into Jay he started to light up with a glow (and yes I know this sounds a little crazy) and when they came back we were connected through this glow, becoming truly one (again I know it sounds a little crazy but really this is how it felt). I was so intoxicated by this glow and felt so connected to Jay that it was easy to give over control and not stop myself giving everything to Jay. This felt so good and so intense even recalling it now has got me excited and almost out of breath, this ended in me having a great orgasm which seemed to last continuously for about 5 minutes, which as you can imagine was simply AMAZING!

The next morning I didn’t feel any different to the night before like the first time we tried this. I still felt relaxed and at ease with all that happened and like I said before even recalling it has made me horny so hopefully this good feeling will last and we can really use it enhance everything else.

Elle

New feature

I've decided to add 'Reactions' to the blog posts.

There are now three options 'Interesting', '*Hottt*' and 'Other'. So if you find a post thought provoking, or well... interesting, then tick the Interesting box. If the post did something for you, made you a little 'hot under the collar' etc, then tick *Hottt*. Finally, if it was neither of those then tick Other and feel free to post your comments as to what the Other thing you thought of the post was!

Jay

The strange case of Trixie...

Once again I'm going to post about something that happened a few months ago. I really should keep up with the blog posts from now on...

On the evening in question, we had been to a family party. As often happens on these kind of occasions, copious amounts of alcohol were consumed by all concerned. While Elle wasn't incredibly drunk this night, she was well past the stage of being tipsy and there may have been a slight sway to her stance by the end of the evening :P.

The party wound down about 1am and off we went to bed and as is often the case after a drink or ten, Elle was feeling rather frisky. Cue the jumping onto Jay and a prod or two demanding sex. Out of nowhere the oh so recognisable 'butter wouldn't melt' voice of Trixie popped out. Trixie speaks in a slightly softer voice with a very teasing and naughty tint to it you see. While I was rather puzzled to see Trixie pop out all of her own accord, the strangest thing was that she seemed rather sober. The drunken slurring had gone, her eyes able to fully focus and the sway had disappeared.

I'm sure this is very hard to believe. It was indeed difficult for me to get my head round at the time but somehow, Elle had managed to go from being rather drunk to perfectly sober in the space of a few seconds. Once the deed was done, Trixie went back to the recesses of Elle's mind and I once again had a rather drunk girlfriend on my hands. It was an instant change and mind boggling to watch.

I have no explanation for what went on at all but I thought I'd share and see if anyone can come up with any possibilities!

Jay

Trixie, Cindy and Frankie

A (long) while ago I promised to write a post about a few 'characters' that we had been utilising. While Cindy and Frankie haven't been brought out in a while there have been a few interesting developments with Trixie so I thought it would still be worth a post. That and I'm working on a much longer post, though it may never actually make its way on here...

Those who have made their way through our other posts will have seen Elle's post in August where she briefly discussed these characters of hers. As she said at the time, the use of these characters stemmed from my attempts to talk directly to Elle's subconscious (à la the BDSM Hypnosis Blog). When this didn't quite work we had a talk about how it felt and what had gone on. Elle said that while she didn't feel like the trancing had had much effect on bringing her subconscious out, there had always been something there that had taken over slightly in the past. For her, this was her submissive side. In her every day life, Elle is fairly dominant, very strong willed and likes to be in control. There is, however, this other side to her. Now, I'm in no means talking about a split personality or anything close to this. Simply that she has a truly submissive side. Something she often battles with, but rarely succeeds in taming when it comes to me.

We had a chat about it (the exact words I can no longer remember) and Elle identified that this could be part of her subconscious. This conclusion was more logical at the time but like I say, I have no recollection of the actual conversation. I decided that if her subconscious refused to come out and play simply by being asked, I get a little more persuasive and see if I could coax it out. I figured that by suppressing some of Elle's characteristics that didn't relate to her vision of her subconscious it might allow it to come through a bit clearer. In the beginning it didn't really. I negated the downsides of this failure by enjoying the new trigger to turn Elle into this wonderfully submissive girl :D. After a while, I decided this character needed a name so I put Elle into trance and asked her to name it. After a little while the answer came back 'My name is Trixie, Master.'

Over the last few months, Trixie has grown more and more. She has more of her own personality (though still VERY much Elle). She kisses differently. Touches differently. In fact she does a lot of things differently ;-). She also has far fewer boundaries and hang-ups, something that no doubt relates to the removal of Elle's worries when she switches to Trixie. Trixie also has a little habit of taking control of Elle. I'm fairly certain this is instigated by Elle herself but she says differently. Hmmm. In this post I wish to stick to the topic of the characters so I will save a puzzling little story about Trixie for another post.

Then there are Cindy and Frankie. These two are far less complex. They are basically just Elle acting out roles. Cindy is a porn star. A shit kisser (always looking for those angles to the camera lol) but great at urmmm, other things... Frankie was originally a stripper that we had the pleasure of dancing for us at a strip club we went to. When we got home I decided it'd be a good idea to create Elle a stripper character, and for posterity of such a wonderful dance, I named this character Frankie. Frankie doesn't really kiss, won't usually do naughty things but is an outstanding dancer! Basically what you would expect of a stripper.

The interesting bit about these other two characters that while they are just Elle acting a part, she becomes them. Thinks like a stipper/porn star, acts like them and finally does their roles rather(/worryingly lol) well too.

I'll get that interesting post about Trixie up soon too. Hope everyone is still enjoying the read. Feel free to put a link to the blog on sites that may have a readership who would enjoy it.

Jay